It feels like I’m around people a lot. Constantly. But, this makes sense because people are one of the things that make me the happiness. I thrive off of being around others. However, I all too easily forget how draining this can be when it’s all I have known for the past couple months.
I forget how precious and reenergizing time alone can be.
I used to absolutely loathe being alone, which had a lot to do with the fact that I was insecure with who I was. When I moved away from everything that I knew and started completely over, alone was something I did not want to be. But, I got used to it. I started to appreciate what being alone actually meant.
Today has been absolutely brilliant. I spent almost the entire day just to myself. It helps that I am at my parent’s house away from all of the normal distractions.
While spending time to myself, I rediscovered a song that is so beautifully written. (Yes, it’s by ‘The Fray’, but I’m not so much worried about the music of it so much as I am the poem of words that are strung together)
It perfectly captures the emotion of happiness. However, it doesn’t sound like a particularly happy tune. But, sometimes happiness is more than simply being happy, it’s a longing for more. Then, you think of other times when you were so happy that you could cry and you are almost to the point of sadness that you are not in that moment right now.
Would it crash blowing 80-miles an hour?
Or is happiness a little more like knocking
On your door, and you just let it in? Happiness feels a lot like sorrow
Let it be, you can’t make it come or go
But you are gone- not for good but for now
Gone for now feels a lot like gone for good Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard
Happiness was never mine to hold
Careful child, light the fuse and get away
‘Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks
Happiness damn near destroys you
Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor
So you tell yourself, that’s enough for now
Happiness has a violent roar
Happiness is like the old man told me
Look for it, but you’ll never find it all
Let it go, live your life and leave it
Then one day, wake up and she’ll be home
Home, home, home
be alone. be happy. don’t take it for granted.